blahs...

i've been going through the february blahs.. does anyone else get these??? i read somewhere that february is the most depressing month of the year. i hadn't really bought into that, but, now i think i'm infected with it. luckily, it's the last day of this... (oh...and i'm 2 months without a cigarette!! yay!) tomorrow will be back to normal. a day can change everything.

sounds about right...

"Math anxiety saps working memory needed to do math."

Dear lady with red hair,

i couldn't help but overhear you speaking to your son yesterday. (you were screaming, so of course i overheard you!) you told your crying son "STOP CRYING, BOYS DON'T CRY." i looked at your son, who was all of 4 years old, and saw his future. lady, because of you and your angry words, he'll grow up learning to hold all his emotions in and more than likely take them out on women. when i saw your son's little red face streamed with tears i wanted so badly to go and hold him and tell him that it was ok and YES, boys DO cry. i did manage a weak "yes, they do too", but i don't think you heard me. i hope that you were having a bad day and don't normally say such things, but that is powerful and believe me, children remember. oh, and by the way.. you can lose the jogging suit. we both know that you don't jog or have any intention to start.

Nik Kershaw - Wouldn't it be good

oh, how i love ihop...

if you haven't gone to ihop lately... you should go, right now! we went the other day and i had almost forgotten how fun it is. such americana!! old, old americana, at that. i love the fact that most people there are traveling. i like to go and pretend like i'm not from here. does anyone else do this??? i also love people watching. the couple across from us sat down and each pulled out a book. i guess they had said all they needed to and were done talking to each other. weird.
then, up the aisle from us was the cutest old lady with cat-eye glasses, crazy hair and bright red lipstick smeared all over her face. she had the oatmeal, and was sitting alone. i almost left jaron and bryan to sit with her. she looked really interesting. the ladies sitting next to us, with just a piece of glass separating us, were really holding on to their youth. their hair and make-up were a little over the top and they were each on their cell phones. ha! it's a beautiful place. i told bryan that he could just leave me there. he said that if i'm ever in a bad mood, he'll just take me to ihop... oh, and the coffee!!

conversation with my doctor...

dr: "how is your hand?"
me: "much better, thanks."
dr: "what church do you go to?"
me: "i don't go to church."
dr: "maybe THAT'S what's wrong with you."
me: sigh

finally...

i'm getting better. i can now use my hands!! the doctor's aren't really sure what happened, but they think i had a severe allergic reaction to some medications i was on.
i had been taking wellbutrin since the beginning of january to quit smoking. i had a reaction when i came off of it and i guess mixing benadryl with that and my other meds was not a smart thing to do. i got the wellbutrin from a friend, so my doctor had no idea. anyway, i guess whatever it takes to quit smoking! ha!
seriously, i'm so happy that this is not permanent. i can sympathize with people who have arthritis, or nerve damage (india!).
now i'm taking enough steroids to win the world series.
oh, and some of you thought i'd quit smoking already. well, i did...and then i started again!
i hope that it sticks this time. it's been 29 days.